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Monday, December 20, 2010

30 and lovin it!!!

Well…just turned 30!! And it feels great! Lookin good, fellin good, and ready for the next chapter to be written in my life! Thanks to all my wonderful friends that came out Saturday! Sam and I are so lucky to have that many friends! Hula Hut and Plush were an absolute blast! Thank you to everyone who came and to those who went through the trouble of getting me a gift! It was absolutely not necessary but appreciated for sure!!! Today…I had PF changes for lunch with some friends…and then came to have cookies delivered on my desk from some other friends and now I feel like I’m going to explode! Tonight is CHee Zee for dinner and can’t wait to get all festive and warm feeling with good friends. I want to thank God for blessing me so much. I am very very thankful. I want to thank him for opening my eyes and giving me closure on what was necessary. I want to thank him for giving me strength daily in getting through the tough times. Most importantly I want to thank him for blessing me with a good life surrounded by people who love me dearly. Life is good…and I will do my best to appreciate everything I have. While things are super different this bday than last year…it has been quite the roller coaster. I can’t even imagine what 2011 has in store for me…but if I know God…he’s got a plan and it will definitely be exciting. To forgiveness, love and joy and most importantly new beginnings...….Happy holidays my friends…and Happy Happy New Years. Cheers! here's just a few pics :)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Bone Thuggin Halloween!

Wow, it’s been a colorful couple of weeks! First started of with Bone Thugs and harmony taken me and Adelle back to our childhood. I realized…two weeks of not working out…makes it difficult to dance without pain!!! We had a great time and great memories…then came Halloween.

Halloween is one of my favorite holidays! Since I was a kid, Halloween was a big holiday my mom loved to celebrate. She always dressed us up in 1st place prize costumes. I have ranged from being spicy Barbie, Indian princess, hawaiin girl, old lady, Cruella DeVille.. to….yes…SADAM HUSSAIN, yes… I know. It was funny at the time and I was ten and yes…my mustache was practically natural back then. This year…I had to go back to my favorite decade and be a brown Cindi Lauper.

I was sitting on Adelle’s porch and I realized the cloud was a in a crazy familiar shape! It was in the shape of the batman symbol for an emergency like in the movies. I called Adelle out there and she agreed! We were amazed. We also decided, tonight would be the night I meet my batman. LOL. We decided to go to zombie ball, but not as zombies. Adelle and I are rebels! Turns out…Batman was 1, under age…and 2 a lesbian. So that kind of killed my batman fantasy..but there is always next year. Eric and Jessie win for zombie costume . best i could do was create myself as a zombie on a website :) And the charmer for the night I have to say…is Bret Michaels. LOL. It was pretty hilarious.

This week I’m out in Cali for work and I have to say….its been great! I have a great boss! He is so understanding, empathetic and most importantly a very great boss. He is always trying to better my career and has been the first to give me opportunity to travel! I love San Jose. The mountains and fresh air here are so mind clearing. I really want to stay….something about being out of state just feels good. Tomorrow…back to reality…and back to routine…and back to work in my very annoying building that I no longer enjoy going to. Thankfully, my team and company is based out of Cali I’m hoping for more trips in a future…and maybe just maybe..batman..will be in Cali.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

I have a new brother!

The last two weeks have been pretty fun! Last Monday I got a call from On Location Casting saying they handpicked my face to be a featured extra in the movie “Bernie”. I was like really! Well here’s what entailed! I spent my entire Tuesday sitting next to the one and only Jack Black and Shirley McClain! It was a great experience! They even put me through hair and makeup which was awesome. I was one of the only 8 European diners in the scene and the one dressed in a sheek black dress. It was very exciting! They put cigarettes on my table and said…”we’d like you to be a smoker “ in order to give the full European scene…which I thought was hilarious. I didn’t get to take any pictures but the experience was amazing!

This last weekend I inherited a new brother! My sister finally got married after dating Gopal for 8 years. I couldn’t have asked for a better brother-in-law. The ceremony was beautiful. We had over 350+ guests and 90 of them stayed in the JW Marriott Resort where it was held. My mom made 90 baskets with snacks to give each of our hotel guests. It was pretty insane. Family flying in from all over the world for this event! It was 2 ceremonies and 1 long fun reception that had a photo booth, hookah lounge, open bar and music till 2am! What more could the guests ask for. My sister did a wonderful job planning and everyone said this was the best wedding they have ever attended including all my friends!

One of my best friends Robert Cooperman and I also performed the couple’s first dance. We sang the song “Lucky” and if I do say so myself…we kicked ass!!! My sister said it was the most confident and best performance she’s ever seen of mine in her life. I have to give credit to Robert, having such a great duet partner to sing with, I really did feed of his confidence. I sang a second song at the end of the reception that went very well as well!

My mom did fall ill after the wedding but thanks to the hospitality of JW Marriott care she is a lot better now.

In the midst of all the family and wedding chaos, I’d like to thank my friends Vanessa, Adelle, Jayson, Robert and Jaro for having my back and attending this wedding and sharing this special day with me and my family. You guys are really great friends and I’m so lucky to have friends like you!

To Dalia and Gopal….as I said in my toast…“A friend is one who knows who you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still gently allows you to grow.” This quote to me is Dalia and Gopal because before everything, Gopal and Dalia were friends and through friendship grew love. I want to tell you both how much I love you and truly wish you both a very happy life filled with continued friendship, love and most importantly a future where you two are one team who conquers to world together. If you ever need anything always know that I am here. Welcome to the family Gopal!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Fall Fun and Freedom....Freedom!! You got to give for what you take :)

Well…life is starting to pick up again and lots of fun things going on! I’m single, in shape, lookin good and feeling good…and let me tell ya the new found attention is great! I’ve been seeing all kinds of old friends, hittin up the happy hours and bbq’s and enjoying the beginning of Fall!

Fall is my FAVORITE SEASON! It puts me in the best mood and I love it. This week alone, I had a blast at Eric’s 29th BBQ bday, going to see Social Network tonight, went to 2 happy hours and had some very interesting calls and conversations with some old friends on how I need to really embrace being single at almost thirty. Ladies and Gents…I can truly say I’m so looking fwd to it. I am a HUGE sex and the city fan…and well let’s face it…they started all their fun in their 30’s! So thank you…for my freedom 

No more confusion about who I am, no more dating bad boys with confused hearts, no more changing hair colors and slamming jagers till I black out. The old problems are now someone else’s problems and that realization alone is awesome and gave me sense of relief! New food, new cultures, new experiences, NEW men . No …this new decade will be about really coming to my own, having a good time, traveling, doing art and most importantly I’m all about meeting new people, having new experiences that make me grow as a person. I want to embrace life and enjoy it to the fullest as if every day were my last.

I went through this phase not too long ago where I thought, I have enough friends and I really don’t want to socialize anymore or meet new people. That has totally changed. I’m back to my fun loving self, feeling good and all about meeting new people who will change the course of my life! My good friend Derek told me ….Lia..wear that black dress…with the belt…and go try something new you’ve never done before! LOL…Believe me…I am. I’m so excited to see what this season will bring. If so much can happen to me in the last year and year before…God only knows what this new year will bring ! I have Halloween to look forward too, possibly Vegas/New Orleans. A few friends big 30th bdays…everyone is turning 30 and most importantly…my friend is helping me plan my big bad grand 30th birthday! Get ready people, it’s been years since I’ve thrown a “Lia Party” and this will be one for the books. The New Year is approaching and I’ve already got 2 big trips planned and I can’t wait!

I want to thank those of you who have reached out to me recently and have expressed how much you care about me and want to stay in touch after all I’ve seen and gone through in the last 2 months. All I know is life is pretty good again and it’s because I have such a strong group of support from old friends and new ones I made in the last year. Thanks again everyone…and like George Michael says...."FREEDOM! FREEDOM! YOU GOT TO GIVE FOR WHAT YOU TAKE!" For real let the good times roll!!!!!!!!

and i won the lottery 5 times in the last two about good luck :)

Here's some old school Halloween pics for fun :)

Monday, September 27, 2010

The Fall Climb

Today I stepped outside…the fall has finally arrived. The cool breeze on my face felt so good and it was a reminder of how much I love the change of seasons. This is my favorite time of the year. It’s when I feel like the year is slowly coming to an end all I can do is take it in. It's time for the leaves to change colors and for me to start changing as well. I sat on my porch today thinking about what this year has brought to my life. Just like the seasons, it started off last fall…and made a full circle. I had so many memories that I’m going to remember for the rest of my life. I can truly say that this year has been an amazing year and while there were good and bad times, it happened for a reason. I realized that this is just another year, another chapter in my life. Just like the seasons, this year will come and go and another winter has will arrive. These memories will slowly fade and new memories will take its place.

Life is just moving and climbing towards a future that is unknown and I hope that I am on the right path. I hope I can take the memories and what I’ve learned and know that it has made me stronger. Last night I spent an evening with an old friend over dinner and wine and remembered how easy things fade and can be forgiven and forgotten over time if you let it. My faith has definitely been shaken, but I haven’t lost it. The beautiful fall weather I love so much reminded me of this. Though we have storms and horrible hot days when we feel like we are suffocating…the sun comes out with a cool breeze again. Just like today…the weather is gorgeous and cool and it feels so good to step outside. I’ve come to realize…things are feeling good and I’m moving forward. It’s not easy, but I hate to say it…”it is what it is” and things will NEVER be the same again. It’s been a tough year but I’m almost to the other side of it. I’m excited to see what this winter brings me…and I’m hoping it’s filled with fun, hope, good times and finally closure, so that I can start the new year fresh and begin this new path to my future.

This weekend I spent time with an old friend and we both realzied...we are too good and we are so young...let the good times begin...and let the past be the past.

I know this is cheesy…but I am not a Miley Cyrus fan at all…but her song the climb….is one I am living.

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Friday, September 10, 2010

"You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life"

So things have been progressing in the last few weeks. I’ve been working out and eating right and in some cases working out twice a day. Trying my best to not think negatively, though at times I do relapse, it happens. Shit happens, and it’s okay! But as Rocky Balboa says “The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done.” So...I have my bad days...but thanks to friends and family, i pick myself up again and move fwd. Working out and taking care of myself has proved to work well since I fit in some GORGEOUS Indian outfits for my sister’s wedding in October. Not to mention the attention I’ve been getting lately  also helps. Self reflection leads to a lot positive actions; this is my take on life.

I took the summer off originally to enjoy myself and time with my friends and boyfriend at the time...but taking time off proved to be a bad, bad idea. I’ve learned, never take time off. Work to live. Stay busy, very busy. Make time for no one and really focus on yourself. Sometimes, it is okay to be selfish if the outcome is that you are doing what you are meant to do and it is positive. Do not let others bring you down for one, or take you off a path you set for yourself. Find balance. And if you get off the path for awhile, it’s okay to take a break. Don’t let anyone make you feel like you are any less or not capable if you do. The second I stopped staying busy, I became bored; bored with my life, bored with my routine and bored in general. I wanted excitement and spontaneity which unfortunately I was not getting with my life at the time. Routine sucks. Life is too short. I’ve learned that staying busy and making time for the things in your life is what keeps a healthy balance in your everyday life. Whether that is working out, painting, reading, hanging out with friends, there is time for everything if you make time. The key is to schedule, plan and take a break when you need it. Never however, stop your life for anyone or anything.

The minute you do that, people take advantage of you and stop appreciating you. People start to lose respect for you even if they are doing nothing to help you, but instead criticize you for helping them. Remember that. I have learned over time that when you give up things you never planned on but let happen, that is the beginning of a bad transition that is about to take place. So...what did I do to change it? I’ve accepted my current life situation and have decided to welcome God’s transition in my life right now. I’m realizing God is trying to take the negative dirty dust out of my life. He is opening the doors instead for a fresh start to being happy, prosperous, successful and most importantly living healthy life style. This is a time for me to wake up, smell the roses, start painting, get back to Lia and conquer the world with my paintbrush, all the while looking my best and feeling my best!

Expect to see new art and a trail of canvases I leave behind this year expressing my life from 2010. The result will be a great art show and I hope you all can make it when I’m done because “ Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life. “Pablo Picaso”

Friday, August 20, 2010

Self Preservation- In God I trust.

Self Preservation:
1.Protection of oneself from harm or destruction.
2.The instinct for individual preservation; the innate desire to stay alive.

The past few weeks have been difficult. I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about what I’ve done wrong and why my life seems to have turned into such turmoil. But now, all I can do is trust in God. Lately I find myself talking to him a lot. I’ve always talked to him, but this may be the first time in my life where I am talking to him daily and really needing his strength.

Positive thinking is a difficult task for me. I have been burned many times in my life and at some point it is so easy to become cynical, negative and untrusting. It is a daily task for me to remind myself of my blessings and my strengths. I have a lot to be thankful for. I have a supportive family, great friends, a good job, money to pay bills, clothes on my back and food in my tummy. I am smart, good looking, educated, spiritual, and consider myself fun, loyal, trustworthy and most importantly brutally honest. If I know I’m so blessed, why then can I not be happy? Do people need love from others and relationships to really be happy with themselves? I have learned that if you can’t love yourself for whatever reason, then the result will be your partner won’t love you either.

So I am working on loving me. I lost that somewhere in the last few months because I depended too much on someone else to show me love. I let myself get lost in my relationship. You never know why or when it happens, just one day you wake up and you’re sad. You don’t know why, you just are. You don’t know how or when it happened, but it consumes you.

But I am done being sad…I am done being mad…and I am done blaming myself for things that are out of my control when all I have done is give. I am done being mean and I am done being hurt. They are two pointless things. As Brett Michaels says “you get way more bees with honey then vinegar”.

I am done trying to understand all the wrong in the world that makes no sense to me. My love is not to be tampered with and it is not to be taken for granted.

All I want now is true happiness within me so one day I can really give and share it with someone special without feeling bad about it. I have realized that I have a lot of self worth. I am a strong woman and I’ll be damned if I let anyone break me and my emotions or make me feel any less than I am. I am an emotional person and for that I am thankful. Because of my emotions, I know how to feel deeply and love so deeply. That is a gift God gave me, the gift of intensity and true passion. He gave me a special view on life and special way to handle things. If someone wants to reject it or sacrifice it, that is their mistake. When God gives you something precious, you do not return it or reject it, you accept it. You cherish it and appreciate it. I have a lot to give, a lot to love and lot share. But right now the most important thing I have is God on my side.

These verses are what touched me today.
• 1 Peter 3: 14 But even if you suffer for doing what is right, God will reward you for it. So don’t worry or be afraid of their threats.
• 1 Peter 5:7 Give all your worries and cares to God for He cares about you.
• James 1:12 God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him.
• 1 Corinthians 16:13 Be on guard. Stand firm in the faith. Be courageous. Be strong.
• John 14:1 “Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me.
• Psalm 37:4 Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires.

This one in particular…I’m working extra hard at….because God sure did give me an over analyzing brain…but I am working on self control.
• Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.

I have now lost 12lbs, and am slowly reaching my goal weight. I am learning to be the happy me and one day…someone will accept me for all that I am and that person will really be lucky.

This week is time to get back with the art…and draw my 2010 Self Portrait. I will share it when it is finished.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Life after Italy

Hello to all of you who followed my Italy blog a year ago. It’s amazing how life changes in just one year’s time. Last year at this time I was getting over my grandmother’s death and working through a heart break and my trip to Italy helped me slowly heal. It was a wonderful experience though I wish I had discovered it in much happier times. I’ve been thinking of that trip a lot, and what I thought I learned. While I discovered myself, I’m now finding I did not learn the lessons I should have learned. I find myself thinking of my grandmother a lot. I hope she is watching over me with her angel wings because now more than ever I find myself needing guidance.

It’s a year later and I’m finding myself in the same place I was last summer. I had a wonderful year full of new love, laughter and joy… only to come back to the same place of sadness. I often wonder what God’s plan is for me and when will I have some clue of what it is. I pray for understanding and hope that I can do as he wills. Today, I made a choice, to make food my enemy. I love to eat and I love to drown my sorrows in it. But I decided to make a life change today. To eat what I hate, because apparently it is better for me. I decided to start working out again, because apparently this is what’s good for you. Why is something you hate so much, is what you end up needing in life? And what you love so much has to be what’s bad.

In two weeks I get to cleanse my mind and spend a weekend looking at some amazing art at the Festival of Arts in Laguna Beach. I also get to attend a Gala that Mario Lopez is hosting! That is pretty exciting. All I can say is right now, that may be the only thing that I am looking forward to. Given my latest up’s and downs in life; I have been inspired to draw again. Some dark and some not….but I guarantee it will tell a story. I hope the inspiration stays and I can have enough to do an art show in the near future again. It would be ironic if my art show this year ends up falling at the same time it was last year. Now that would be dejavou.

Anyway, to all you folks who are going through a rough period right now…it seems to be break up season. If you haven’t already heard the song by Eminem and Rihanna, check it out “Love the way you lie”. Apparently it has gotten 20 MILLION hits in 4 days. Video is good though more on the trashy side of thigns ;) but the words and music is one that sticks to the mind. Eminiem has done it again. I love that guy…some how..he knows how to hit where the heart is.

Well that’s all for now. I think I will start picking up my blogs again…and start a new chapter in my life….Life after Italy.