The Fall Climb

Today I stepped outside…the fall has finally arrived. The cool breeze on my face felt so good and it was a reminder of how much I love the change of seasons. This is my favorite time of the year. It’s when I feel like the year is slowly coming to an end all I can do is take it in. It's time for the leaves to change colors and for me to start changing as well. I sat on my porch today thinking about what this year has brought to my life. Just like the seasons, it started off last fall…and made a full circle. I had so many memories that I’m going to remember for the rest of my life. I can truly say that this year has been an amazing year and while there were good and bad times, it happened for a reason. I realized that this is just another year, another chapter in my life. Just like the seasons, this year will come and go and another winter has will arrive. These memories will slowly fade and new memories will take its place.

Life is just moving and climbing towards a future that is unknown and I hope that I am on the right path. I hope I can take the memories and what I’ve learned and know that it has made me stronger. Last night I spent an evening with an old friend over dinner and wine and remembered how easy things fade and can be forgiven and forgotten over time if you let it. My faith has definitely been shaken, but I haven’t lost it. The beautiful fall weather I love so much reminded me of this. Though we have storms and horrible hot days when we feel like we are suffocating…the sun comes out with a cool breeze again. Just like today…the weather is gorgeous and cool and it feels so good to step outside. I’ve come to realize…things are feeling good and I’m moving forward. It’s not easy, but I hate to say it…”it is what it is” and things will NEVER be the same again. It’s been a tough year but I’m almost to the other side of it. I’m excited to see what this winter brings me…and I’m hoping it’s filled with fun, hope, good times and finally closure, so that I can start the new year fresh and begin this new path to my future.

This weekend I spent time with an old friend and we both realzied...we are too good and we are so young...let the good times begin...and let the past be the past.



I know this is cheesy…but I am not a Miley Cyrus fan at all…but her song the climb….is one I am living.


There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

"You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life"

So things have been progressing in the last few weeks. I’ve been working out and eating right and in some cases working out twice a day. Trying my best to not think negatively, though at times I do relapse, it happens. Shit happens, and it’s okay! But as Rocky Balboa says “The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done.” So...I have my bad days...but thanks to friends and family, i pick myself up again and move fwd. Working out and taking care of myself has proved to work well since I fit in some GORGEOUS Indian outfits for my sister’s wedding in October. Not to mention the attention I’ve been getting lately  also helps. Self reflection leads to a lot positive actions; this is my take on life.

I took the summer off originally to enjoy myself and time with my friends and boyfriend at the time...but taking time off proved to be a bad, bad idea. I’ve learned, never take time off. Work to live. Stay busy, very busy. Make time for no one and really focus on yourself. Sometimes, it is okay to be selfish if the outcome is that you are doing what you are meant to do and it is positive. Do not let others bring you down for one, or take you off a path you set for yourself. Find balance. And if you get off the path for awhile, it’s okay to take a break. Don’t let anyone make you feel like you are any less or not capable if you do. The second I stopped staying busy, I became bored; bored with my life, bored with my routine and bored in general. I wanted excitement and spontaneity which unfortunately I was not getting with my life at the time. Routine sucks. Life is too short. I’ve learned that staying busy and making time for the things in your life is what keeps a healthy balance in your everyday life. Whether that is working out, painting, reading, hanging out with friends, there is time for everything if you make time. The key is to schedule, plan and take a break when you need it. Never however, stop your life for anyone or anything.

The minute you do that, people take advantage of you and stop appreciating you. People start to lose respect for you even if they are doing nothing to help you, but instead criticize you for helping them. Remember that. I have learned over time that when you give up things you never planned on but let happen, that is the beginning of a bad transition that is about to take place. So...what did I do to change it? I’ve accepted my current life situation and have decided to welcome God’s transition in my life right now. I’m realizing God is trying to take the negative dirty dust out of my life. He is opening the doors instead for a fresh start to being happy, prosperous, successful and most importantly living healthy life style. This is a time for me to wake up, smell the roses, start painting, get back to Lia and conquer the world with my paintbrush, all the while looking my best and feeling my best!

Expect to see new art and a trail of canvases I leave behind this year expressing my life from 2010. The result will be a great art show and I hope you all can make it when I’m done because “ Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life. “Pablo Picaso”