Life after Italy

Hello to all of you who followed my Italy blog a year ago. It’s amazing how life changes in just one year’s time. Last year at this time I was getting over my grandmother’s death and working through a heart break and my trip to Italy helped me slowly heal. It was a wonderful experience though I wish I had discovered it in much happier times. I’ve been thinking of that trip a lot, and what I thought I learned. While I discovered myself, I’m now finding I did not learn the lessons I should have learned. I find myself thinking of my grandmother a lot. I hope she is watching over me with her angel wings because now more than ever I find myself needing guidance.

It’s a year later and I’m finding myself in the same place I was last summer. I had a wonderful year full of new love, laughter and joy… only to come back to the same place of sadness. I often wonder what God’s plan is for me and when will I have some clue of what it is. I pray for understanding and hope that I can do as he wills. Today, I made a choice, to make food my enemy. I love to eat and I love to drown my sorrows in it. But I decided to make a life change today. To eat what I hate, because apparently it is better for me. I decided to start working out again, because apparently this is what’s good for you. Why is something you hate so much, is what you end up needing in life? And what you love so much has to be what’s bad.

In two weeks I get to cleanse my mind and spend a weekend looking at some amazing art at the Festival of Arts in Laguna Beach. I also get to attend a Gala that Mario Lopez is hosting! That is pretty exciting. All I can say is right now, that may be the only thing that I am looking forward to. Given my latest up’s and downs in life; I have been inspired to draw again. Some dark and some not….but I guarantee it will tell a story. I hope the inspiration stays and I can have enough to do an art show in the near future again. It would be ironic if my art show this year ends up falling at the same time it was last year. Now that would be dejavou.

Anyway, to all you folks who are going through a rough period right now…it seems to be break up season. If you haven’t already heard the song by Eminem and Rihanna, check it out “Love the way you lie”. Apparently it has gotten 20 MILLION hits in 4 days. Video is good though more on the trashy side of thigns ;) but the words and music is one that sticks to the mind. Eminiem has done it again. I love that guy…some how..he knows how to hit where the heart is.

Well that’s all for now. I think I will start picking up my blogs again…and start a new chapter in my life….Life after Italy.